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My mere perceptions and delusions were the only things weighing me down the entire month of October. Naturally, I originally knew this, yet did not possess the necessary guts to take myself out of this mindset and into a newer world; the city itself. I had a fear I was under the control of some "authorized personnel" and I didn't know who to speak to, and I didn't know what to do, and I felt trapped in my own anxiety, as any insane person would. But finally, for whatever reas

After weeks of evasion, I'd finally come to the decision to return to the Nepali church once more, much to Bischetaa's excitement. This marks my third visit, each the same, ending with my own tragedy—the thoughtless memories of childhood religion. So I sat there among my peers and my kids, zoning in and out of each hymn, each prayer. However, there is a type of magic, something in the air of that church that each Nepali inhales and soon becomes high on. Each hymn, each promis

How I do dread the chill of the rainy season. I'd been wearing three long-sleeve layers, each getting progressively thicker, and I continued to shiver. My body wasn't used to the sudden drop in temperature, and I do not believe my cold aided in mildening my reaction. However, I was surrounded by a lack of people who reminisced in the cold, and was lucky enough to work in the sole room that closes completely. Earlier that day, Phoebe, an acquainted coworker of mine, had fallen

Last year it was a Thursday. I remember. I was working the previous Wednesday, an 8-hour shift I’d taken from a coworker who had another event up her sleeve for that day. I wanted to be with my mother, so we swapped — an unfair exchange, four hours for eight — but she didn’t seem to mind, and my mother seemed ecstatic that I chose to stay, at least as ecstatic as she could be. I went to school earlier that Thursday. Our high school declared the even days of the week “Day 2’s

A storm is brewing, change is afoot. Returning from holiday left nothing to be desired. I woke with an exuberant amount of confidence compared to the week prior. This feeling dissipated quite quickly during breakfast as Tashi unknowingly chose to pick a harmless fight with me over what I eat. He would not let go of the fact that I chose to eat the same food day after day. He stated that it was unhealthy (as I am well aware), and I should ask if I want something different even

I did not want to write this. I did not want to be awake. I’ve fallen into some young kind of psychosis, some episode of depression. But...

I have long since returned to the SDSS amidst the passing of my seasonal depression and fight with an unnamed and unidentified parasite....

Nothing extremely new happened this past week, but I believe it is up to me to entertain you and bring you along on this journey of mine,...

Last night, Bijata held a mass mourning. Wednesday has been declared a national holiday for the resting. Bijata messaged me tonight...

Never before have I been thrust between fear and chaos. It is war here, between what the people believe and what the government wants. What happens if one side wins? Are they automatically right? Or does yet another riot commence because their opinion differs from the rest? My prior information was not inaccurate, but it did miss some crucial details that were not available to me at the time of writing. Two protests turned into riots yesterday, with people intermingling betwe

I believe myself to be quite a shallow person. Despite how I dress, despite who I read, despite how I speak, for simplicity and...

Language barriers are quite a difficult thing to live with, especially if that barrier is the lack of comprehension of English or solely...

It is fascinating how humans choose to interact, how we try and find common ground between one another and when that cannot be found,...

Western society cannot begin to comprehend how lucky they are and choose not to believe the fact that they take that luckiness, and the...

During the weeks leading up to this trip, I was consistently warned about culture shock.  This is something I was quite afraid of, mostly...

It has been a long 30+ hours full of nothing but excitement and anxiety, allowing the tears to finally roll out, so I shall make this...